She came to APC on February 13, 2021. She left on February 28, 2025.

I was never prepared. How can anyone be prepared to this๐Ÿ’”

Ada was not just a shelter dog. She was my dog. My heart. My everything. She was the reason APC still made sense to me.
And now, nothing makes sense anymore.
I never chose her as my favorite.
She chose me. And I did everything I could to give her the life she deserved.

I knew no one will adopt a senior dog so i indirectly adopted her. I did everything to make sure she is comfortable. She was my girl.
And now I am broken into a million pieces.
I used to tell her, please donโ€™t leave me. But if you ever have to, spare me the decision. Maybe she listened. But I never wanted her to die this way. It was shocking it was surreal.

She fought like a warrior her whole life, and she died like one.
My Ada was one of a kind. And now, sheโ€™s gone.
My queen is gone. How can you ever be ready for this.
I donโ€™t know how to go on from here.

Since December 15, itโ€™s been one loss after another. Weโ€™ve lost so many residents that we still didnโ€™t have the strength to mention.

And now, Ada…

I am broken into a million pieces.

Forgive me, Ada. I didnโ€™t protect you on this day. And I believe there is a reason you left this way. Maybe I wonโ€™t understand it now. Maybe one day I will.
You were a gift to me. You taught me how to be a mother. And now, I am lost without you.

My heart is so heavy that it feels like it will burst under its own weight.
I beg you, come see me in my dreams. Let me hug you, let me kiss you. Let me tell you how much I love you. I live for these moments- try to stay asleep, hoping you will come.

I planted an olive tree above your grave, right above your head.
I will come and sit there every day, talk to you. I will tell you how much I love you, how much I miss you, and how I will never, ever forget you.

For now, I am stepping away from APC, to pick up the pieces you left behind. I need my sanity back.

Rest, my love, my QUEEN. You were everything. You still are.

Life is ugly and empty without you.
I donโ€™t want you to become just a memoryโ€” donโ€™t want you to be in the past.

Razane

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