She came to APC on February 13, 2021. She left on February 28, 2025.
I was never prepared. How can anyone be prepared to this๐
Ada was not just a shelter dog. She was my dog. My heart. My everything. She was the reason APC still made sense to me.
And now, nothing makes sense anymore.
I never chose her as my favorite.
She chose me. And I did everything I could to give her the life she deserved.
I knew no one will adopt a senior dog so i indirectly adopted her. I did everything to make sure she is comfortable. She was my girl.
And now I am broken into a million pieces.
I used to tell her, please donโt leave me. But if you ever have to, spare me the decision. Maybe she listened. But I never wanted her to die this way. It was shocking it was surreal.
She fought like a warrior her whole life, and she died like one.
My Ada was one of a kind. And now, sheโs gone.
My queen is gone. How can you ever be ready for this.
I donโt know how to go on from here.
Since December 15, itโs been one loss after another. Weโve lost so many residents that we still didnโt have the strength to mention.
And now, Ada…
I am broken into a million pieces.
Forgive me, Ada. I didnโt protect you on this day. And I believe there is a reason you left this way. Maybe I wonโt understand it now. Maybe one day I will.
You were a gift to me. You taught me how to be a mother. And now, I am lost without you.
My heart is so heavy that it feels like it will burst under its own weight.
I beg you, come see me in my dreams. Let me hug you, let me kiss you. Let me tell you how much I love you. I live for these moments- try to stay asleep, hoping you will come.
I planted an olive tree above your grave, right above your head.
I will come and sit there every day, talk to you. I will tell you how much I love you, how much I miss you, and how I will never, ever forget you.
For now, I am stepping away from APC, to pick up the pieces you left behind. I need my sanity back.
Rest, my love, my QUEEN. You were everything. You still are.
Life is ugly and empty without you.
I donโt want you to become just a memoryโ donโt want you to be in the past.
Razane